Let’s face it, I bet that many of you have felt like a failure more times than once. You have a bad day where nothing seems to go your way, and all you have to focus on is what you may have done wrong or even how much further you have left to go. You may have struggles and you may have doubts of whether or even of when you will find the success that you desperately want. And while many of you will tend to focus on how much you have failed in the past, resulting in a state of paralysis, I know that you WANT to move forward.
So do just that…move forward by looking how far you have come. Appreciate all the things you HAVE worked on rather than focusing on all the things you have not OR even on all the things you have left to go.
Maybe you changed the weights you are lifting. Or maybe you have gotten home on time so that you have an hour longer with your family. Or maybe you just have been getting to appointments on time, whereas you would have been late in the past.
I know that it may be hard to find the good that you have done in spite of the day, but I promise you that if you really try to think about last year to this year there must be something that you HAVE worked on. And if you just look at that, I bet that each and every one of you will find success EVEN in your bad days. And that you will find better days ahead.
So while I know that I can go on and on about this point suggesting you to do something without my doing it at all, the point of this Instagram and blog was to show that it can be done. I don’t want to tell you to do xx and xyz if I am not able to do it myself. I mean honestly, how many of you truly read all these motivational quotes saying “yeah, right… That can never be me! I’m not strong enough or I’m not good enough…” You get the gist. So let me just talk about me!
So while I have been quite honest with you all, the fact is that I frequently have harder days than others. For some reason some days just seem like they are harder to tackle as I just feel mentally dissociated almost from the food. As much as my BA in biology and nutrition and food sciences has given me in terms of knowledge, I still find myself finding times that I have just no desires to eat the food I need to. I do it because it has to be done, but that doesn’t truly make the battle or struggle just go away. Doing the deed itself does not erase the mental battles that I sometimes face, as many of you can relate. Just like my brother has to deal with his type 1 diabetes daily, and just like my other brother needs to deal with his food allergies daily, my anorexia is something that needs to be dealt with as well.
But while I could go on and on about the failures that I’ve had these past years and how much I have yet to work on, the fact is that looking back has become one of the best things I ever decided to do. So yes, I still have struggles and I’m not sure if they will end completely. And yes, I still am looking for a job, and I’m not sure when or where I’ll be able to find one. But at least there have been things in which I have improved. I have been lifting 9’s now when I used to lift 7’s, I’ve been changing my workout routines a little bit more and being a little more okay with doing so as I have in the past, I’ve been including new foods that I never thought I could, and been putting myself out there in ways I never imagined myself even doing.
So while yet another short blog post, the point is that we all are too hard on ourselves when we should be proud. Rather than looking at all that is left to do or all that we have failed in, we must look back at how much we have done. Granted,there are probably more things that you had wanted to work on this last year past, but if you just continue to focus on each day as an opportunity for your life to get better, I know that it will. So with that said, let’s take our bad days and smack them back in the face as we start to appreciate what we’ve done.
With Love Always,